Mark - you've already done the best thing for yourself in coming here. You will find the latest and best information available anywhere plus the experience and compassion of people who have been where you are. You are already taking steps to get in control of your health and that's good. The waiting to find out anything is absolutely the worst - so try to focus on all the good possibilities and don't allow the negatives to take over. My son was only 33 when he was diagnosed - he had lost everything too, but years later he is doing better than ever! Hang in there and check back here often!