I am a 37 year old (yes 37) male from the Chicago area and am 2 days away from what I fully expect will be a positive diagnosis for right tonsil cancer.

After a few months of dealing with symptoms and going through tests to rule out causes, I am sitting here in a state of shock and disbelief that I have thrown my life away due to smoking. Everything that I took for granted in life is now gone (girlfriends, sports, career, etc)

I am trying to deal with this in a logical manner by researching the condition, choosing a hospital, getting my affairs in order, etc but realize what I need is support and someone to reach out to.