Yes the chemo thing is heavy on my mind, I didn't realize it was different from standard chemo (haven't been able to confer with the chemo doc yet because he's been out of town) it's the only big decision I have left to make and time is getting short. After reading all the possible side effects, longer recovery time, and wondering what could happen if I were to become sick with something else when my imune system is down I'm extremely hesitant. But I'm sure I'll reconsider before judgment day.

And what about Amifostine...no one has mentioned it's use to me yet at the hospital. Why? If it works shouldn't they be asking me about it?