Thanks so much, Amy. I appreciate your thoughts and prayers. This is the hardest thing I've ever experienced and I don't even know where to begin to get through this. This forum has been amazing, such caring supportive people. And I'm glad I found you because I do think we can help eachother.

I absolutely understand all the feelings you are experiencing right now. The numbness unfortunately didn't last very long for me. Sometimes I think I wish I could get back to that so I don't have to feel the pain and sadness anymore. The anger is something I think we all carry to some degree, and it may never go away... because it is so incredibly unfair that there is a disease this evil that is taking us and our loved ones and there is still no cure!

Amy, you keep doing what you are doing. Take care of yourself in the process of taking care of your dad. And take the time to share your feelings because even though it may feel like you are alone (because I know I sure do!), you aren't alone here AT ALL. I don't plan to leave this forum for a while... it has given me more peace of mind than anything else thus far.

Keep me posted on how things are going, or even drop a line if there is nothing new to report. I'll be on here every day...