Hi Amylynn,
I am so sorry for all you are going through. We went through a lot before we finally had a diagnosis. It can be amazingly frustrating.
As for maybe losing your dad... I don't know that there are any words we can give you to help sort your feelings as we are not in your shoes, but I can tell you that we are with you every step of the way. You can vent to us and we are here to listen and help with moral support at least.
If you go under the caregiver forum you will see posts from cmoore. This is Christine. She has just recently lost her husband Matt and may be a good resource for you. She's a lovely lady who stays in touch with us and I know she would not mind hearing from you. Just click on her name and then the personal message (pm) and say hello and what you are going through.
Keep in touch. Praying for strength for you. Our job as caregiver is a mighty difficult one because we are battling so many emotions all the while keeping a smile on our face. I used to cry in the shower!!! It was my only alone time.
Blessings,
Kathy