Kelley, Welcome to the forum. My husband, Kelly, was diagnosed with SSC to right tonsil with three positive lymph nodes when he was 37. It has been three and a half years now post radiation and he is doing great. We do still get scared about a reoccurrence, but have found that with time it doesn't happen as often and not as intense a fear. Just wanted to tell you to hang in there. The healing process can be rather slow, both physically and mentally, but gradually things get better each day.