Paul Im so glad you have found The Oral Cancer Foundation. I think it will be a big help to you knowing you are not alone in this. Recovery for many of us is not taking us back to 100% of who we were before we got sick. I have many lingering after effects, one being very disfigured. I dont let it stop me from living my life to the best of my ability. I am very fortunate to be still alive and I remember all the struggles I went thru to get to this point. What helps me stay positive is helping others. Its my reason to get up in the morning. Im sure your profession gives you that same sense of self worth. You are very lucky to still be healthy enough to work a full time job.

Ive found that people genuinely like to help others. Dont think of getting help as being weak. Everyone needs a hand once in a while. I learned to accept help when I got sick. Prior to that I had been overly independent. Its ok to need a hand sometimes, it does not make you weak to take someone's help. I hope you are able to pull out of your depression. Joining this forum should help you to feel a little better. Stick with us, we are a great group of people