Thanks Cheryl. And there are a few things after reading about it that make me think I am looking at some inflammation of some kind. One, retropharyngeal nodal involvement occurs primarily through areas where I don't have any cancer. The closest is the supraglottic area above the vox cords, epilglottis and BOT and such. Mine was transglottic to subglottic BELOW my vox cords. Also, as I understand it the glottic region of the larynx, which is basically the true vox cords, doesn't have any nodal communication connection. So my cancer would have had to spread up, through the glottic area into the supraglottic area above and THEN spread to the retropharyngeal space. I don't think the scans and images support that. Nothing ever showed anything above the glottic area. In fact that area always looked pretty good. It was the big knot below my vox that was the bugger.

So yea I'm not too worried. In fact except for a few moments here and there, I have not been very worried at all. There have been a few crisis moments where how I was actually feeling (very bad) during treatment was psychologically panic inducing. But when I heard the voice of God say "Trust me" after hearing my MO say what I was looking at wasn't something they could get rid of so well, I have been extraordinarily unafraid. Before that moment I was panicking badly. Sobbing tears all the time, manic up and down swings, rampant fear all day long. I kept uncontrollably repeating the word "cancer" over and over and over in my mind. It was bad. But then God spoke and since that moment it's only been brief spots of mild nervousness here and there.