You have every right to vent. I am two years post op and Im still on morphine 15 mg and I just lowered my patch from 75 to 50. I want so bad to get off meds, however I have pain everyday. I have an ulcer on my cheek that won't heal. jaw pain, mouth pain, I also get this muscle spasm in my chin that I have to literally work out with my finger until it's soft again. So, what have you failed? NOTHING....we have to deal with this anyway we can. You deserve to be pain free just like the rest of us.