Samantha, I just read your post and please know that you are in my thoughts and payres. As we say in NA, AA, and all other A's...you're in the right place. So welcome. I am very new here but I have found soooo much strengh and hope here that I jones to get home and log on. Of all the terrible things I've done to my body over the years I wind up with "sexually transmitted cancer" WTF!!! An IV drug addict for two decades and because of being careful no HIV or hep C. and I wind up with this??? I just don't get it. That being said I am looking for this to make me the strongest fighter on the planet and do something positive with my life (I've wasted a lot of time over the years). You are young and strong and something great will come out of all of this for you. I promise. Will Zinn