Carol, I'm so sorry to hear that you are having to go through this again. My mother has had several bouts of oral cancer. She never drank or smoked but it keeps coming back. She is 79 years old and hanging in there. You can too! You sound like a pretty strong lady to me with lots of friends here and the best cheerleader in the world...Christine...she's something, isn't she? I will be keeping you in my prayers. You can do it!!!!! And, hopefully, life will be much better after it's all said and done.