I'm sorry you took my post to be bullying. That wasn't the intent. Truth is we have had people on the boards over the last ten years that are looking for alternatives, and trying to help them wasn't fruitful when their minds are made up. I just wanted to stress to you that these boards are not a forum for exploring alternatives. There are other sites out in the web that are. We deal in evidence based information that can be substantiated or personal testimonial of experiences. These boards are also open to people of many different belief systems, including people that have none at all. That is why the agreement to use them states clearly that religious diversity is the rule, and that to the extent possible we keep religion out of the boards.
I will stay away from your postings, until they wander across the rules of the forum. Then I or another admin person will intervene. None of this means that I do not wish you well in your battle, and the most rapid return to health and a normal life possible.