Cheryl - I am so sorry for both of you! You certainly don't have to be "Sally Sunshine" - In fact, sometimes it helps to just "lose it" and get all that pent up stuff out. I'm sure DH is just reacting to the whole situation himself and trying desperately to be in control of something. Sounds like he really wants to save you from getting bad news and doesn't realize the strength that you do have. I sure am hoping for some better, more peaceful moments ahead for you and DH. Stay close to us here and let us know how it goes.