Jim, it's hard for me to really understand how tough things must be for you. I realize I got off easy comparatively, and I still have thoughts like yours all the time. Like Charm, I'll refrain from the rah rah. Just know that my thoughts are with you, brother.

I will say that I find your kids' conduct inexcusable. Sorry but that's how I see it. A few years back I moved across the country to take care of my dad in his last days and was honored to do it. And I still felt I didn't do enough.

Hang in there. Keep writing.
David 2

David 2
SCC of occult origin 1/09 (age 55)| Stage III TXN1M0 | HPV 16+, non-smoker, moderate drinker | Modified radical neck dissection 3/09 | 31 days IMRT finished 6/09 | Hit 14 years all clear in 6/23 | Radiation Fibrosis Syndrome kicked in a few years after treatment and has been progressing since | Prostate cancer diagnosis 10/18