I have been wondering if I am surviving or just in a state of existing. The pain is worse daily and getting nourishment is much harder to get into this old body. Everything is so much harder to swallow and the choices are getting to be less. Does anyone else feel this way and have these thoughts? Just some of the thoughts I have been having lately. My energy is waning too.

Since posting this. UPMC, Pittsburgh, Oct 2011 until Jan. I averaged about 2 to 3 surgeries a week there. w Can't have jaw made as bone is deteroriating steaily that is left in jaw. Mersa is to blame. Feeding tube . Had trach for 4mos. Got it out April.
--- Passed away 5/14/14, will be greatly missed by everyone here