You will be surprised to discover just how much strength you have. Again, it's important to remember that all of the internet boards, even including OCF, have a predominance of people who had complications or tough times. Many many people only go through this once. No need to be scared.
Life goes on and Cancer does not mean an end to laughter, love, or adventure. BTW, I coughed up a storm at first also. Very normal.
charm