Thank you so much for your response Karen! I feel so lucky to have found this site and to have the supposrt of people like you. Like many others, i dont know where i would be if OCF wasnt here for me.

I have been thinking about a counselling this week because i feel that physically i'm getting better but mentally i'm sliding backwards. I have been feeling really out of touch with reality - i'm here but i'm not really. I have always been a very happy and upbeat person but just in the last two weeks i have become almost depressed. I feel like only half of me is present and the other half has disappeared somewhere. Even with my lovely husband and beautiful two yr old daughter - i dont feel like its 100% of me that is with them and i dont know why i feel this way. Its not like me to be so emotional and negative, hence i feel even less me. Why cant i just feel like "normal" me? Or is this the "normal" me now. Even as i'm typing this, i'm bawling my eyes out!