Hi Kate, thanks for thinking of me.

things have been quiet the past week. she is extremely tired from the chemo; shes on a combination therapy. i keep telling her its better to be tired than violently ill, right? its hard to really talk to her and get the full story of whats going on over there. or how shes feeling. its like pulling teeth to get answers out of my stepdad as he is a very...lets just say, quiet person.

the day she was scheduled to start chemo, she had to go the ER. her cancer had an infection! she had a fever. they gave her iv antibiotics and saline and kept her overnight. she left ER at 6:30am and had to come back a few hours later for the 6 hour chemo

i emailed her yesterday and told her to check her email and we can communicate better that way. but she never fully joined the computer/email bandwagon so her checking email or using the computer is once in a blue moon.

i just miss her a lot and shes really homesick. last time i talked to her she said she just wanted to get back to some sort of normalcy but i know if she rushes to get home, we'll just wish she was back there where we know shes in good hands. its hard for me to be happy about baby without her here. i have my inlaws and my dad but its not the same. if she were here we'd already be out visiting every baby store in sight but i havent done a thing or gone anywhere. i guess i need to get over that.
we did have our first ultrasound 2 days ago and we heard/saw the little heartbeat! ive had two miscarriages and we never saw the heartbeat with those two - they both ended around 6 weeks. so it was unreal to actually hear that. it was the best thing thats happened in a long time! im estimated at about 7 weeks.

anyway for now im just WAITING (because again, stepdad doesnt call) to hear when her next scan is. i know shes doing lab work on the 20th because she has to lab work before each treatment so i assume shes doing another treatment around the end of the month.