I'm very tired and exhausted so forgive me if I am negative as this is the only place I have to talk. Jim is almost unbearable to live with - he is so frustrated - he is having such a difficult time in breathing - he says a few words and then gasps for breath; sleeps with his head propped up on 4 pillows. I made an appt. with his Dr. tomorrow as I want her to listen to his breathing; the PET about 6 weeks ago indicated little change so I'm not sure why he is having this problem. Can anyone out there explain it?

I made an appt. for me with a therapist that specializes in cancer patients and caregivers on the 15th...hoping she can help me as I feel like I am slipping into a dark hole. The sadness is overwhelming, but I am beginning to resent being yelled at over the smallest things - this morning at 6:00 it was because I haven't obtained a toll tag for our new Challenger - I tried to explain it to him that we are billed for it regardless if we have one or not - he told me to just handle it and quit explaining it; "just get it handled"!! I wanted to lash back and tell him that he can get on the computer and do this as much as I can - plus he has the time to do it; but I bit my tongue and said I'd do it when I got home tonight....I'm exhausted and people at work are beginning to notice it, NOT GOOD!!!

Again, sorry to sound negative, but it's kinda tough here in Dallas right now!