I know I am brand new to this new lifestyle and I have a long road ahead of me. It's crazy you would think that the cancer dx alone would be life shattering; but what also sucks is I'm still single! I was suppose to get married last year May/2009; then fiance bailed. Maybe that's how I got the cancer I was doing a lot of weekend binge drinking getting over my ex; maybe that's what triggered the HPV to awaken! Who knows!!!. Now with being diagnosed with cancer; I feel that I will never get married and have kids! You people that are married and have kids are very lucky to have family that can support you and give you that extra incentive to fight!!