I am single and fighting this disease! My mother lives in Florida but she would be more stress than help. I have friends that are near by but there is nothing they can really do or say! All i get is how are you doing; don't be so negative. But it's difficult when you don't know what is in store for you after this treatment. Will I ever eat again and enjoy it? eating is such a big part of our social lives. Will I ever find love again? not sure if someone will want to be with a cancer survivor who hacks and spits up mucus all day long! Will I ever be happy again? I am so tired of people asking how are you doing? What am I suppose to say JUST GREAT; LIFE IS JUST GREAT CAN"T WAIT FOR MY NEXT STOMACH FEEDING!!! I don't even want to be out in social settings. I don't want to be around people who are laughing, eating, drinking, and having a good time!!!

I feel like I'm 38 going on 58. I might as well get a Dog after this and sign up for AARP card! {No offense to to you older folks) But it is what it is..... this shouldn't be happening at this age....life is terribly ****ed uppp! frown
Charles

Charles

HPV +16 Right Tonsil SCC with 1 Right lymph node. Tonsillectomy and neck resection.

Got 33 radiation doses via tomo machine (58 gry to back of throat, 65 gry to right neck, and 56 gry to left neck) with 2 cisplatin and one carboplatin due to possible hearing loss.