Gina. glad to hear the surgery went well.
I hope when you are ready you do pick up the phone and call for help with your depression. I understand what you are saying about there not being any magic words to make it go away. But there are techniques and/or meds that can help.

Also, I think sometimes it's helpful to be able to speak to someone where you don't have to worry about their reaction, or their emotions. To have an hour or so a week where you can focus your thoughts, say whatever you want, break down if you need to and get some additional support.

I've been a therapist for over 25 years so if I can answer any questions, please feel free to PM me. Happy to help if I can...