Seda

with 27 posts in two months, you are in no danger of posting too much. Even if you were, I have never seen anyone rebuked for asking too many questions. Ah, yes the feeling of being "swept along in this adventure without even knowing how I got here" - quite common. Like Liz & DavidCPA, my two cents is that radiation is a great weapon in this fight and not one to be scoffed at. Sure, it is the "gift that keeps on giving" but it has the best track record of knocking the cancer out. Trust me, if the worse case happens, and the cancer comes back, you will regret so much not having radiation. Heck, I had the maximum radiation and then started "should've could've" about my chemo and not taking the cisplatin only the Erbitux. So I'm with your friends and family on this one: you must do everything now because this cancer is unforgiving.
charm