thanks guys..
for the record, the "why me" was never one of self pity. i took the news on the chin and stayed as positive as possible (very positive!) until the surgery and clear pathology.

but, having worked and studied all my life in science i cant help but ask questions when something doesnt fit a pattern. everything is connected, something i have done (or had done to me) over the last twenty years (?) set off one cell...it didnt just happen because i can deal with it (in my opinion, though i respect Jim your thoughts that that may be why you were randomly selected).

i lost my dad to cancer when i was 10, so wondered if grief may be at the core.

could it be toothpaste, mobile phones, a plant i worked at, a favourite corn chip i've overindulged in?

i agree treatment is the most important aspect for me now (recovery from at least), however treating a disease and not addressing the cause has been a recurring failure in modern medicine.

anyway, just curious on people's thoughts and whether there has been any investigation into the patterns that connect the non-smoking lightning bolts among us.

ps - im full vego (9 years)...so maybe Marlene it was that one drink or vege-burger too many...

peace
jp