All,

The jury's returned. I met with the MO (first time) yesterday (Monday, 16th 2009), explained the three different opinions I'd gotten from the surgeon and two ROs and pulled the "What would you say if it were a family member of yours sitting up here on the table?". After getting the "there is no wrong approach" speech, I got the feeling that he did agree with the IU to be followed by concurrent chemo and rads, and commited myself to the plan. I go in tomorrow a.m. (oops, not tomorrow - 7:30 this morning now - arghh, too wired to sleep, but know I should)to get a PICC line at a local hospital, then it's 9:30 Emend by IV (super anti nausea med), followed by taxotere and Cisplatin for a few hours, then back home where a nurse will hook up my 5-FU pump for the 5-day release. My insurance doesn't cover the pump being set up at the center where I'm already getting my treatments, but will cover a travelling nurse coming to me, go figure.

Very nervous, funny that after all this time of being frustrated that we weren't acting NOW, I feel like it's all a rush. I though day one would be Thursday, but got the call Tuesday that we'd do it all Wednesday (so I'm not really prepared, despite hitting the drugstore and dumping a goodly amount of money on bits and bobs I'll need (hand sanitizers for home, work, and car, bathroom products, etc.).

Now that the decision's made, I've got a couple of new contestants on what to obsess over - hmmmm.

Wishing you all the best,

- Pam