Wendy,
Your feelings are normal. Like Christine said this disease does change a person mentally. I just have one thing, remember that he loves you even when he is mean and saying mean things. He scared like you and may say tings that would never come out of his mouth otherwise. I know I have said some things to my husband (caregiver) that I never knew I could say. It is a scary thing to go through and sometime we do not know how to handle all the feelings inside. I can tell that you arte a caring young lady just by your words. I will be praying for you and your husband during this most difficult time. Keep us update on how he is doing and on hoiw you are doing. This is a great place for comfort and encouragement.