Petey,
Man these folks really let you have it, didn't they? Well you deserve it. There must be something we're missing here, cause several folks have told you some possible avenues to get treated even though you don't have insurance. I too had BOT cancer, received radiation and chemo with no surgery...my quality of life ain't that bad.
Try what the folks are telling you above, I've been on this board long enough to know that Gary Allsebrook know his s*** so contact him or PM him and figure this out. If you have to agree to pay the rest of your life, you can sort that out later.
I will pray that you CHOOSE LIFE if not for your sake, then your families!
Tim