Does anyone know why I would be so depressed and angry as hell at the world? This came on during the last week. I don't have a clue.
On a one to ten I would rate my anger about a nine.

Dan?

Hi Danny,

Goes to show you are as human as we all are. Feeling depressed and angry goes with the territory. I've been online with my sister in Maryland because since I got home yesterday from the service for my husband which was Friday, I've been crying non-stop and very, very angry. Angry that my life with cancer has changed so dramatically and life without my husband has been more than I can bear sometimes. Talking to my sister made me feel a little better (at least for the time being) for she pointed out all I've been through and how far I have come since I had my surgery last July. I'm trying to put my feelings in perspective but sometimes it's difficult. Needless to say you've been through hell and back and I can understand and empathize with those feelings. Venting helps - yelling helps - and for me, crying helps. Sorry if this note doesn't help but I read your note when I've been experiencing the same. Try to keep your chin up.

Nancy

Don't let it eat you up! You have so much & so little time to make the most of it! Find a way to smile! Fake it till you make it through this! My thoughts & hopes are with you! Your friend, Erik

Dan,

And why wouldn't you be mad at the world?? You look at other people and they seem to have everything, health and energy and plans for fun stuff to do, while you are sick and tired and scared.

Maybe you need to do a little of whining and yelling and kicking things and even breaking dishes. i find that breaking something in the kitchen is a sort of release, and then you sort of punish yourself by having to clean it up.

Honestly, Danny, your messages have been so cheerful and sensible, it's a relief to see that you are human too. I am angry at the world because of what happened to you, why wouldn't you be angry?

I am afraid I am not being very helpful.

Leena

Dear Dan

I believe it would be unusual if you didn't feel angry. Let it out - tears, bang your pillow on the bed, retreat. Whatever it takes, and when you are through, the peaceful and loving times with your family will be even sweeter.

Thinking of you, as ever, with love from Helen

You are mad because you have to keep being strong through it all. You are the person people lean on, which is a huge responsibility that I know you've gladly taken on. But you know that in the months ahead, things will change. Of course you are pissed, depressed.

I'm so angry for you, Dan, and for Scott, for Lynn, for all the others. It's hard to always be strong and face all of this. My heart rages against this horrible disease, that it takes so many good people from us.

My heart breaks for you. Please know that in many ways I understand how you feel.

love,
Christine

dan,
my sister is pretty angry too, and when she's not angry, she's depressed. this is taking a lot of her energy and wearing down everybody around her as well. i figure there is nothing to do, really. i think she has every right to be angry and sad at the way her life has spun out of her control, at the multitude of limitations, pains and frustrations she has to deal with every minute, without any substantial relief. i figure anger and sadness are part of the deal and she has to work her way through them. i find it really difficult to negotiate between the right to be angry and the need for peace. i figure this is a rough road and each of us are doing the best we can to cope and to maintain a zest for continuing the walk. i can see how difficult this all should be for you given your role and family responsibilities. perhaps the grounds you recently landscaped could be a source of solace. i find that gardening, having my hands in the soil, grounds me, literally and figuratively.

sending positive thoughts your way.

gita

Danny,
You have helped so many people. You can't possibly be up all the time. This to will pass and you'll be back to your old self. We all go through this. I'll be praying for you.
Mary Lee

Danny,

I too get very angry. Very angry. Why us? Why is there a 75 year old dude sitting up at the corner bar right now having a shot of whiskey and a filterless Camel 9doing the same thing he has been doing for 50 years) and he will live to 100 while we have for some reason been chosen to get this crappy deal?

I talked with my doc, they told me that anti depressants (spelling it too early) help this matter and they were right. They do help quite a bit. I am on a very low dosage of Paxil and it seem to keep my spirits up.

It is a lot to handle my friend. But we will get through it. God has a plan. Thats they way it has to be I guess (clearly the Paxil talking).

Even with the Paxil, all I can think about when I look into my newborns eyes is "I hope I live long enough for him to remember who I was" that, is what keeps me truckin through this.

Take care man. Keep up the physical stuff as you have been. That helps too.

Later. Drop me a line or give me a call if you need to vent some more.

Later,
Robert

God, Danny, if you weren`t angry, we`d worry! I looked at your post yesterday, and it made me angry, it makes me angry to see this happen to friends, and I spent 6 years being angry.But, I really believe that anger can be a good thing, it motivates us to keep fighting and not roll over and give up. You know we`re fighters Dan, and hell, we don`t give up. There`s so much love on this board for you, and your love and support for Packer and me through everything we went through helped us both more than I can say.You`ve given so much of yourself to so many of us, so please believe that we`re all angry and fighting with you.Packer always felt a special bond with you, since you were both Green Bay fans, so I`m sure there`s an angel with a cheesehead fighting for ya too.............Love and Hugs, Dee