So you wont know for sure till next week. It's going to be hard until they come up with a firm diagnosis and some sort of plan. I'm thinking of you and crossing my fingers that it's not a recurrence and if it is, there is a treatment plan. I hope you can cram the next few days with good books, movies, walks, bike rides or whatever leisure/work activities you enjoy.

Vent your feelings here!

These days they are coming up with a lot of different new meds. Like our MO who is in charge of drug development at our hospital says, "there is always something (i.e. New med to try)." Things will become clearer once you have had the imaging and the biopsy. Right now, I am sure even the doctors don't know exactly what they are dealing with. Take Alpaca's very good advice for the next few days. I will be wishing for the very very best for you.

Hey GM... how is your hubby doing? hugs.

I hope you get some great news after they do this CT scan. Get right back on that bicycle!

Got "The Phone Call" this morning from my local ENT, the cancer surgeon I"m seeing on Thursday called him with the results. (they used to work together so sort of buddy buddy)

Preminary is the biopsy confirmed it is a tumour. PET/CT confirms, also that it has metastisized to the lungs amoung other placees. Basically suggesting palliive chemotherapy, won't cure but may slow down. What's there is beyond any 'curing' at this point.

Luckily my mom has been in town, wife insisted she come up after we sort of had an idea what was going on. Having a lot of family talks, etc. I don't have it in my anymore to be the "caancer warrior", just want to get affairs in order, get decent hopefullly pain free quaity of life for remaining time, get my head right for the next journey.

And so it goes

Bob, not the news any of us wants to hear. If there's anything I may be able to help you with, just ask.

Bob, I'm sorry that you didn't get the news you were hoping for. Your post reminded me of the time when the doctor told us about John's lung metastases and how devastated I felt. That was one and a half years ago. Since then, I have learned not to see it as a "fight" against cancer as it is in no way an equal fight. It is something that I have learned to live with and take a step at a time. I don't look at the "big picture," I fix my eyes on the next step I have to take, and then the next, and the next. John has found seeing a therapist helps too.

I don't know if all this will help give you some comfort or help you to see a way forward. It is tough and I know that different people have different ways of coping with it. I just hope to share my experience with you.

All the very best, my friend.

So sorry to hear about the mets to the lungs. I was at that same fork but for me I went down the other path. The cancer may never be killed off but it certainly might be controlled to where you maintain a pretty good quality of living. Hopefully, you will seek treatment to try to manage it. Take care

I am so sorry that you got bad news. And yes, the cancer warrior view can just add another layer of stress onto the patient. There is a time for that view but sometimes acceptance is healthier.

I really like the advice Gloria has given you based on her experience with her husband. One step at a time.

Great that your family has got together and you're sort of in this together. We are all behind you too. You sound like a terrific guy and if I was a praying type person I'd be praying hard out for you now!

I am so sorry to hear this, JAH. I know how devastating that phone call is and I understand how you feel completely. Reading your signature, you are have been a warrior and are still - dealing with this on your terms takes so much strength and warrior spirit, too.

I wish none of us had to ever get these calls or make these decisions. I know all of this sounds so trite -- it really does -- but my heartfelt best thoughts to you and yours!

The Hellion