|    |       Joined:  Nov 2009  Posts: 396    Platinum Member (300+ posts)   |           Platinum Member (300+ posts)    Joined:  Nov 2009  Posts: 396  |    �Many of us crucify ourselves between two thieves - regret for the past and fear of the future.�   -Fulton Oursler   
         
Teresa ----------- CG to ANDY. Nasopharyngeal Carcinoma (NPC) T2N2cMxG4 stage 4. 43 @ dx 8/31/09 tx 9/21/09-11/06/09 cispatin/docetaxel/5-FU X3  PORT 9/9/09, PEG 12/07/09  35 IMRT-1/wk carbo 11/30/09-2/3/10 tx stopped due to complications IMRT BOOST 3/08-3/12/10 PET 4/12/10 CLEAR! PEG out 4/14/10
  |      |       |               |    |       Joined:  Jun 2007  Posts: 5,260    Patient Advocate (old timer, 2000 posts)   |           Patient Advocate (old timer, 2000 posts)    Joined:  Jun 2007  Posts: 5,260  |      LOL  I just didn't want to burst the color bubble. I too knew it was blue. Hell, I was the conductor on it .
         
     Since posting this. UPMC, Pittsburgh, Oct 2011 until Jan.  I averaged  about 2 to 3 surgeries a week there.  w  Can't have jaw made as bone is deteroriating steaily that is left in jaw. Mersa is to blame. Feeding tube .  Had trach for 4mos. Got it out April. --- Passed away 5/14/14, will be greatly missed by everyone here
  |      |       |               |    |       Joined:  Jan 2009  Posts: 1,844    Patient Advocate (1000+ posts)   |      OP      Patient Advocate (1000+ posts)    Joined:  Jan 2009  Posts: 1,844  |    David, Charm,
  Another quote by Mark Twain for you two.  "Get your facts first, then distort them as you please."
  On Topic:
  "The time to take counsel of your fears is before you make an important battle decision. That's the time to listen to every fear you can imagine! When you have collected all the facts and fears and made your decision, turn off all your fears and go ahead!"
  George S. Patton
         
Young Frack, SCC T4N2M0, Cisplatin,35+ rads,ND, RT Mandiblectomy w fibular free flap, facial paralysis, "He who has a "why" to live can bear with almost any "how"." -Nietzche  "WARNING" PG-13 due to Sarcasm & WAY too much attitude, interact at your own risk.
  |      |       |               |    |       Joined:  May 2002  Posts: 2,152    Patient Advocate (old timer, 2000 posts)   |           Patient Advocate (old timer, 2000 posts)    Joined:  May 2002  Posts: 2,152  |    That's Strange. I agree with David. I would swear that the engine was RED in my copy of the book also. It was one of those golden books. I can see the pictures in my mind now and it's red. 
  Take care, Eileen        
---------------------- Aug 1997 unknown primary, Stage III mets to 1 lymph node in neck; rt ND, 36 XRT rad  Aug 2001 tiny tumor on larynx, Stage I total laryngectomy; left ND June 5, 2010 dx early stage breast cancer  June 9, 2011 SCC 1.5 cm hypo pharynx, 70% P-16 positive, no mets, Stage I     
  |      |       |               |    |       Joined:  Mar 2008  Posts: 3,082    Patient Advocate (old timer, 2000 posts)   |           Patient Advocate (old timer, 2000 posts)    Joined:  Mar 2008  Posts: 3,082  |    Eileen
  That's why I posted the Wiki link to the exact cover showing the blue engine.  The Little Red Train is a very popular children's book series from England but not from the 50s. The only thing besides color blindness may be if the train in the movie "Dumbo" was red where Disney inserted the "I think I can" refrain.   
  Eric Back on point with this post/thread" One of my favorites from years ago  [quote]"I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain." --- Frank Herbert, Dune - Bene Gesserit Litany Against Fear [/quote]         65 yr Old Frack  Stage IV BOT T3N2M0 HPV 16+  2007:72GY IMRT(40) 8 ERBITUX No PEG 2008:CANCER BACK Salvage Surgery 25GY-CyberKnife(5) 3 Carboplatin  Apaghia /G button 2012: CANCER BACK -left tonsilar fossa 40GY-CyberKnife(5)  3 Carboplatin    Passed away 4-29-13
  |      |       |               |    |       Joined:  May 2009  Posts: 1,412    Patient Advocate (1000+ posts)   |           Patient Advocate (1000+ posts)    Joined:  May 2009  Posts: 1,412  |    "The absence of fear is not courage; the absences of fear is some kind of brain damage.  Courage is the capacity to go ahead in spite of the fear, o rin spite of the pain."  M. Scott Peck        
Angelia 31 at Dx. DX: 4/30/09, 10/21/09 SCC on floor of mouth,  T1NOMO, T2N1M0 TX: 39 IMRT, 8 cisplatin 11/30/09 PET/CT: 11/03/09: Lymph node involvement PEG/PORT: 11/09 TX end: 02/01/10 PET Scan: 04/05/10 clear PEG Out: 06/21/10 Biopsy: 12/23/10: fibrosis HBO: 01/04/11 - ORN Baby girl born 11-30-12
  |      |       |               |    |       Joined:  Apr 2005  Posts: 2,219    Patient Advocate (old timer, 2000 posts)   |           Patient Advocate (old timer, 2000 posts)    Joined:  Apr 2005  Posts: 2,219  |    David,
  Maybe you were mad and you were seeing RED.
  It's OK, I forgive you.        
Jerry
  Retired Dentist, 59 years old at diagnosis.  SCC of the left lateral border of the tongue (Stage I). Partial glossectomy and 30 nodes removed, 4/6/05.  Nodes all clear. No chemo no radiation 18 year survivor.
  "Whatever doesn't kill me, makes me stronger"
  |      |       |               |    |       Joined:  Jun 2007  Posts: 5,260    Patient Advocate (old timer, 2000 posts)   |           Patient Advocate (old timer, 2000 posts)    Joined:  Jun 2007  Posts: 5,260  |     Angelia,  I can't believe you are calling me brain dead vecause I have no fear.  LOL  But you could be right about the brain damage.  I wasn't even worried going into the second aortic aneurysm repair and still don't fear it knowing I have the bottom half og it that the Dr was afraid to touch for fear of killing me,  I even execise 2 times a day and do 100 reps, each time. I make sure I don't put too much strain of the lower end of that thing tho so it doesn;t blow.        
     Since posting this. UPMC, Pittsburgh, Oct 2011 until Jan.  I averaged  about 2 to 3 surgeries a week there.  w  Can't have jaw made as bone is deteroriating steaily that is left in jaw. Mersa is to blame. Feeding tube .  Had trach for 4mos. Got it out April. --- Passed away 5/14/14, will be greatly missed by everyone here
  |      |       |               |    |       Joined:  Jan 2009  Posts: 1,844    Patient Advocate (1000+ posts)   |      OP      Patient Advocate (1000+ posts)    Joined:  Jan 2009  Posts: 1,844  |    "Flowers grow out of dark moments." -Corita Kent
 
 
         
Young Frack, SCC T4N2M0, Cisplatin,35+ rads,ND, RT Mandiblectomy w fibular free flap, facial paralysis, "He who has a "why" to live can bear with almost any "how"." -Nietzche  "WARNING" PG-13 due to Sarcasm & WAY too much attitude, interact at your own risk.
  |      |       |               |    |       Joined:  Mar 2008  Posts: 3,082    Patient Advocate (old timer, 2000 posts)   |           Patient Advocate (old timer, 2000 posts)    Joined:  Mar 2008  Posts: 3,082  |    Hmmn time to get out my college poetry books:
  "What are fears but voices airy? Whispering harm where harm is not. And deluding the unwary Till the fatal bolt is shot!" ---- Wordsworth: Inscriptions Supposed to be Found in and near a Hermit's Cell - 1818 verse two
  Charm         65 yr Old Frack  Stage IV BOT T3N2M0 HPV 16+  2007:72GY IMRT(40) 8 ERBITUX No PEG 2008:CANCER BACK Salvage Surgery 25GY-CyberKnife(5) 3 Carboplatin  Apaghia /G button 2012: CANCER BACK -left tonsilar fossa 40GY-CyberKnife(5)  3 Carboplatin    Passed away 4-29-13
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