Pat
Gosh your post put me right there in my mind and it has been almost five years ago. You are pretty "normal" for where you are in this journey so do not be discouraged. " My friend called it hitting the wall" and I hit it hard several times during Bobs treatment and recovery.
You should take that extra time that won;t be used on driving to treatment for a little minute/minutes of Pat time. Take a walk, go to a coffee shop before work and just sit and relax..take a Pat break and give yourself a minute to think..

You are right to be concerned about the week/weeks immediately following the end of rads treatment. Not because you won;t be seeing the Drs but because they are sometimes the hardest as the effects of the radiation seem to really have an impact. Bob said it was the worst time of the whole ordeal. He pretty much slept the whole first week. It was the worst time he had for mucous and breathing etc...He had worked up until the last week of rads but then was down for the count for about two/three weeks.

SO be kind to yourself SHARE your feelings and questions here!! Everything Liz said is dead on!!

and the good news after those "bad" few weeks following treatment I started to see my husband come back..very slowly but surely he started to improve everyday. As he felt better his determination to eat and drink and do what he needed to be doing came back!! As he did he got stronger, as he felt stronger his attitude and irritablity improved.

There are brighter days ahead but in the meantime feel however you feel no guilt, do a little thing just for you no guilt and lean on the folks here ... no matter what you are feeling someone else has been there and done that YOU are not alone.
Peace
Denise