Jim, I am so sorry to hear that you are having to go through this again. Here I am telling you how great my mother's doing and then I just started scanning other forums and here you are. Until you know someone who has this stuff you have no earthly idea what it is and what it does to a person and those that love them. I was stupid enough to think when my Mom's was removed the first time that that would just take care of it. She never smoked or drank. But now that it's come back so many times you realize what a monster it is. Well, continue to let the good doctors take good care of you but know that this monster will NEVER take over YOU. I don't really know you very well yet, but you seem like such a good, kind and caring person. I know that God is watching over you and hearing all the prayers that are being sent from people on this site and elsewhere. Take one day at a time - YOU WILL BE FINE. Please keep us informed - we care.