It is the hardest and saddest day when you have to watch someone you love lose their battle. It did come to a point when my brother was dying, that I wished it was over. I felt guilty for thinking that. I couldnt bear sitting next to his bed where he was fully sedated, not knowing I was even there holding his hand, and just waiting for him to die. I knew it was going to happen and when it did, I felt relieved, not just for me, but for him. He was no longer suffering, he was no longer hooked up to machines.

It doesn't make it easier, because now you deal with the loss. But in the end, I know we took care of him, loved him and stood by him until the end.

Sue, you have shown so much strength and courage, probably more than you think you had! His life will become an inspiration to you and your family. You will have even more strength and courage!!

Take care of yourself . . . I am thinking of you all.

Susan