Dianne

From my own perspective, your feelings at less than six months after TX seem very familiar, esp ear pain. But in my case it has gotten better, and I believe it will get better with time for you also. It's okay to be prepared for the worst, but we also need to expect the best. It's normal to be scared when there is real danger. Still, no reason at all why you shouldn't be a survivor posting here a decade from now.