Jeff and others I am happy that quitting worked for you and yes it has a lot to do with motivation and desire. Quite personally I don't know how I have done it so far I must have angels on my shoulders although I still have really bad bouts with it and the excuses and reasoning still come.

With me it is I live with a smoker and everyone else smokes. Second hand stuff is very effective as well. So I can't make everyone else quit I would but free will and all despite logic. I don't wanna hide out and away from every one. They are still very respectful of me and butt out when I am around or go in another room. It will not matter if I have quit or if I will have a reoccurance cause I am still around smoke. So what is the difference between inhaling myself and second hand professionals say no difference.

If that is the case, my health is not any better for not smoking. There are a few lucky ones that have no side effects from quitting but for me weight gain, high blood pressure and a few other pretty things are happening. Instead of huffing and puffing cause of smoking I am doing it cause of weight. I cannot walk much due to other issues (back, foot arthritis) and now more weight even harder to walk..but I am not smoking good for me right...I am not so sure but I am still perservering...Life is tricky...it kinda feels my life or my family is the next decision I must make this again is not fair. Nothing about this dam disease if fair. Hell life isn't fair. I am really trying to stay level headed here but my choices don't seem all that great...stay and possibly have reoccurance from second hand smoke or leave and lower chances by exposure to smoke but still possibly have a reoccurance, or just keep living my life as I was. I am just as unhealthy now as when I was smoking. Just more irritation. The way I look at it I might as well smoke if I am gonna stay in this family cause I don't wanna have to go through treatments again for something I have quit doing!!!