William, if we all spent our time beating up ourselves for the bad choices we have made in life there would be no room for anything in our future. The only question now is, what you are going to do with that time. The fact that you are here, is a good thing... some of that future might be spent helping others, or keeping others from stepping in the same holes that you've been in. (Damn I just stepped in some more S*&^t... It never ends.) Life's certainly a learning process, I just wish that I wasn't such a slow learner!

Brian, stage 4 oral cancer survivor. OCF Founder and Director. The first responsibility of a leader is to define reality. The last is to say thank you. In between, the leader is a servant.