i think you sound normal. i think for many you go thru a period of time figuring out how to deal with the changes life has handed you and you are not quite sure what they are yet - at least the long term ones ... and you kind of wonder if this is it or what will i face next ... it feels like a long black tunnel for a bit and takes a while for the fog to clear.

you have made it this far and you will continue on and do well .. just don't push yourself to feel what is not there yet l.. it will come. just push yourself to maintain your health and continue forward.

it is great you have a good support team - that shows there is a lot of love to live for, so you will do well and if you feel you need help in coping then definitely ask for it.

sounds like you are well on your way though and what you are experiencing is normal.