I will be ok, I always am ok no matter what. The anger of 'why me' never hit me throughout all my battles. I was always the one who said, whats next, lets fix this so I can move on. My goal has always been to get back to normal and regain my life again.

This set back has me discouraged. I worked so hard the past few months and now have gone backwards to where I started again. My thinking has begun to change from the 'lets fix this' attitude. Im very troubled by how quickly the past 4 months of work has just erased itself like it never happened.

The part that bothers me the most is that Im losing my positive attitude. I guess everybody gets to a point where enough is enough and reality hits you hard. Im sure glad that I have the kind and wise people of OCF to listen to me. It makes me feel like Im a big sissy to complain since there are so many worse off than me. Trying to rationalize this isnt always easy.
Thanks for listening