I feel like I'm on a roller coster, up and down and around, where the end. One day it's good news, the next bad, no one agrees. One day they got all the cancer, next time I see them they don't know if they got it. Last week I was being fitted for a mask and being told to get a peg, today I was told that my chart was in the surgeon's car, that she took it with her. The doctor said she took my case before the cancer board and they didn't think that I would need radation. I ask her if she got a clear margin and she said no, because of the bone. she said there was a gray area, where she just got to the edge. She said it would be up to me about the radation. When I ask her about a peg, she said," why would you need a peg?" i sure don't want radation if I don't need it, but I don't want cancer. My cancer doctors where not at the meeting, they work out of Uc Davis about 48 miles away, they come to the cancer center so many days a week, one is gone for two weeks. How do you make up your mind, when everyone tell you something different? I want the easy way, but I know I have to do, what I have to do.