Lynn,
PLEASE slow down - Your life is still worth living.
You have friends here who can help. Please start your own thread so we can respond.

Many of us have battled the cigarettes and there is now more help than ever for quiting. Cigarette smoking is one of the strongest addictions and you are to be admired for having quit. If you did that once, you can do it again. It is not a matter of strengh or weakness but a determination to get the help needed and stick with it.
Perhaps the harshness is your husband's frustration that you have started and he doesn't know how to help you.