Marlys, I think about the only way anyone here will "help you" is to tell you to get back in and finish the rest of your radiation and chemo absolutely as fast as you can manage it. Your chances of surviving this disease depend heavily on it. We've all (anyone who has had radiation) been through the mask and, although I know it is harder for some than for others, yuou should not be more scared of having another panic attack than you should be of dying of oral cancer. Jim is right that even if you are really panicked by the mask at first, it becomes easier over time. Not that it's easy. None of us who have been through it would say that. It's an ordeal.

But this is your LIFE we're talking about here. You are a fighter already to have gone through two mastectomies and chemo for the breast cancer (I had a battle with breast cancer at the same time as my oral cancer battle). Don't give up the fight too early now.

Nelie