"OCF Canuck" Patient Advocate (1000+ posts) Joined: Sep 2006 Posts: 1,357 Likes: 5 | Minnie: I read about your most recent results yesterday but it has taken me until today to try to think of the right thing(s) to say. Firstly, I sooooooooooo know where you are coming from re acceptance. The first time you are diagnosed it is total fear, shock and horror. The second time is almost like the "other shoe has dropped". I too have entered the acceptance phase where my fears are far less. I tend to like to have things in my control - I think busy women have to be a bit controlling just to get things done, and I think through the first two cancer experiences I tried to control the process and the results. I have now come to accept that "all of this" is totally beyond my control. I now realize that (speaking personally) - it is in God's hands, and I can let the fear go.
Having said that, I sometimes wonder whether my "acceptance" denotes any lack of fight. I know that for you the acceptance has not lessened your fighting spirit and you are now fighting in a quieter but just as determined manner.
My thoughts are with you and your family. I feel sure that you will get through this 3rd round of treatment very well. Keep us posted.
Donna
Donna,69, SCC L Tongue T2N1MO Stg IV 4/04 w/partial gloss;32 radtx; T2N2M0 Stg IV; R tongue-2nd partial gloss w/graft 10/07; 30 radtx/2 cispl 2/08. 3rd Oral Cancer surgery 1/22 - Stage 1. 2022 surgery eliminated swallowing and bottom left jaw. Now a “Tubie for Life”.no food envy - Thank God! Surviving isn't easy!!!! .Proudly Canadian - YES, UNIVERSAL HEALTH CARE IS WONDERFUL! (Not perfect but definitely WONDERFUL)
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