Liz- Thanks so much. I also feel myself detaching at times when medical stuff needs to be done. I have been weepy lately but only when I'm alone-usually in my car. It almost seems like Neil is taking this better than I am. Being positive has never been my strong suit but it may have to become one. I think the sudden way this has all happened is finally hitting me. It's almost like the adrenaline has worn off from the surgeries and initial treatments and now the waiting has begun. I used to be so hopeful until the second biopsy and surgery. Then it just felt like I was punched and all the wind was taken out of me. I just wish for half the strength my husband possesses. I honestly think I love him more now. How ironic. Sue