Tom,
First thing... take a deep breath, hold it and relax. You are yelling at everyone when you use all capital letters (as part of internet etiquette), and I don't think you mean to be shouting at anyone, though I am sure that you are rather desperate at this point. Turn your Caps off at the 'Caps Lock' button on your keyboard (left end) and you will see the capital 'A' light (right upper) go off on your keyboard; then you won't be yellin' at all of us.
Secondly, you have found the right place to talk, resolve your fears, and ask tons of questions. There are many, many people here who are willing to help you... even with the 'internet' thing, and keyboarding, etc., etc..., so you can relax for a second, back off and regroup... then you are on your way. This is a wonderful, 'merry band' of folks. Godspeed.

John - Proud to be here...
Hemiglossectomy 08/02/07, 4 lower molars extracted prior to 6 weeks IMRT 09/10/07-10/19/07, SCC w/met to L neck lymph nodes, rad only, no ND. PEG 10/26/07-02/05/08.
"We're all in the same boat in a stormy sea, therefore we owe one another a terrible loyalty."