Hi Gina,
As one who also had a new second cancer, I can relate to your initial fear. However, once I knew what it was, how it was going to be treated and received the good news that they had it all, I stopped worrying about the cancer and started worrying about how to live with my new trach and TEP and how to get better so I could go back to normal living. If it comes back a third time, I'll deal with it then, but in the meantime I don't plan to waste any time worrying aboout it.

You need to concentrate on what you need to do to get better and that also means sound sleep. Do things you like to do that relax you and take your mind off cancer, take a walk, read a book, go to a movie, a concert, out to dinner. I know losing your best friend doesn't help. I lost mine 9 months after my first diagnosis to cancer. Come here to read and post your fears and feelings. We will try to help you. You CANNOT let this disease rule your mind.

Take care,
Eileen