Donna....You could be any one of us. I feel like my words will be exactly like yours if I have a recurrence. I hope you know that here, at least, you don't have to be a hero......You don't have to apologize for expressing your deepest fears. Yes, there are many here who are very brave indeed, but that doesn't mean that they don't have the same fears. There comes a point where you do what you have to do, but it doesn't mean that you aren't terrified. And no, you don't have to go to the Whiner's Corner. It's not whining. It's sharing. And it's being honest, both with yourself and with us.

Keep talking!