Vikki - I would like to echo Wayne's words about "Getting Through It" - and you will get through it, too! Sometimes it is just 5 minutes at a time, before you go on to the next step but the important thing is that each step makes you stronger to handle the next hurdle that comes along. Before my son's OC, I thought divorce was the worst thing I've ever had to get through but even with the devastation of OC, I noticed that the hot baths I needed to get through the anxiety of divorce, had decreased from 4-5 a day to a couple of times a day with OC! Worrying about my son's OC was definitely the most anxiety producing event of my life, but I did find the strength from past experiences, trying different things, but especially from coming to this OCF site several times a day and absorbing all the good advice and compassion. You have so much to handle right now - I hope you can find time to be good to yourself, too. Sending prayers and positive thoughts your way.