For posters that are new, kcdc are both medical professionals. We are fortunate to have them come back to the boards with their experience to share with others, though I completely understand their absence for awhile. I too wanted to hide under the bed for some time related to cancer after my treatments ended. Problem was it didn't help. As a person who has never backed down from a fight or run from confrontation, I find this behaviour of mine so out of character, but fear is a powerful emotion. It is very true that you can be cancer free, but never free of your cancer....