Cindy,
I do truly 'feel your pain.' My husband was so ill at one point in his chemo/radiation treatment that he could barely walk, and I had to almost force him into the car for the 90-minute drive to the radiation center. He ended up in the hospital with a blood clot at the kidney and was there for a week....very sick boy. Luckily, they were able to somehow keep him on the radiation schedule, though they did put off his chemo treatment for 2 days. He fought going to that treatment! Did NOT want to be in that chair for the day....and I really had to talk him through the entire day. I was so afraid he was going to give up all treatments. He had lost 30 pounds - was down to 127 - and looks ever so frail and 'breakable.' It was the scariest of times.

I do believe that reminding him every day of how much I love him - and need him - and of all we have planned for the future - has kept him focused on recovery. I tell him how proud I am of his determination to beat this thing..

God will give you the strength and courage you need, Cindy. Try not to despair; you'll be surprised at how much you can take.
Love
Nicki