I too wanted to quit towards the end & the tech rationalized me through once, begged me through another time, & just let me cry on her shoulder until I did it another time! I was pathetic, but feeling what I was feeling at the time. I think back & guess I just wanted some control over something, whether it was good for me or not. Doesn't make much sense now! I remember feeling sooo beaten down & just felt like I couldn't do it any more or that more treatment would make any difference because it was all pointless. I was definately depressed. Somehow I stuck with it & did complete radiation, however I didn't take the last cisplatin treatment. That was a dumb move on my part even though I am cancer free today, 9 1/2 months out. Time will only tell. Ultimately he will have to make his own decisions & I hope he follows through & believes us when we tell him this will pass & he will feel better. He's in a tough time right now. Keep yer chin up & breathe!


dx 2/11/04 scca bot T3 IU 2B MO poorly differentiated, margins ok, 3/16 modest, jaw split, over half of tongue removed, free flap from left forearm - finished chemo & rad treatment 5/20/04